It's not as immediately destructive as the cordyceps had been, but it's certainly as deadly, in his time. He grimaces at the sight of her fidgeting, but he's glad she isn't interrupting.
"I was an angry man all my life, but this time - I don't know, I didn't get angry. I felt it was my due. And somethin' about that situation made me realize I had so little damn time left, and what was I doin'? Shaking down widows? Robbing carriages? For what? The money wasn't goin' nowhere."
He shrugs and takes a drink. "Started small, doin' some things to help people. And then it's most of what I did, my whole day. It made me feel good. It made me happy, and I had not felt that way most of my life. And I talked to the people I cared about, for the first time in my life. You know - I let 'em know me. Before I was gonna die, I was at least gonna try an' be remembered, for the bad and the good stuff."
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Date: 2021-11-15 08:39 pm (UTC)It's not as immediately destructive as the cordyceps had been, but it's certainly as deadly, in his time. He grimaces at the sight of her fidgeting, but he's glad she isn't interrupting.
"I was an angry man all my life, but this time - I don't know, I didn't get angry. I felt it was my due. And somethin' about that situation made me realize I had so little damn time left, and what was I doin'? Shaking down widows? Robbing carriages? For what? The money wasn't goin' nowhere."
He shrugs and takes a drink. "Started small, doin' some things to help people. And then it's most of what I did, my whole day. It made me feel good. It made me happy, and I had not felt that way most of my life. And I talked to the people I cared about, for the first time in my life. You know - I let 'em know me. Before I was gonna die, I was at least gonna try an' be remembered, for the bad and the good stuff."