"Some people might still hate me. Some might forget. But I left some of those conversations feelin' like I'd finally made an impact on the world that wasn't selfish. People started tellin' me I was a good man - I didn't believe 'em, but they said it. No one ever said that to me before."

He takes a drink, and admits: "It felt damn good. I know that's selfish, but I don't care. It felt good."